To blog or not to blog, that is the question.

Wether ‘tis nobler on the web to suffer the snark and criticism if outrageous naysayers, or to take arms against a sea of carbohydrates. And by opposing, end them.

To abstain… to be fat… NO MORE!!!!

 

OK, Just kidding, I’m not always that dorky, but it does happen from time to time.  ;)

I’ve decided I need a bit of a hobby, so I’ve decided to start a blog about my life as a low carber and possibly help someone else escape the dredges of carbdom. I believe in the low carb lifestyle because I know it works. The science just makes sense, it’s worked for me, I’ve seen it work for others and it can work for you.  I want to help. I want other people who felt as shitty and worthless as I did being fat to know, there is hope!!!! It’s easy, it’s doable, but it’s a commitment. It’s been said before, but bears repeating- “Losing weight is hard, being fat is hard. Pick your hard”. Just do it.

I guess I can start by telling you my story, hopefully this will be the most boring part of my blog adventure and it will get much more exciting from here, but I can’t make any promises.

Ahhhh…. 1982…. It was a good year, the year of my debut into the world. At 8lbs 6oz, I was a decent sized babe, nothing out of the ordinary and certainly not fat, yet. Fast forward a few years and on came the chunk. I was always a fat kid, even as a toddler. Not sure why, I just always recall being heavier than everyone else. I remember playing outside like a normal kid, being active and my mother never allowing chips, soda, candy or sugary cereals in the house. So why did I end up fat?? Who knows. Well actually, I do now, I’ve read Taubes’ newest, but I’ll get to that later I’m sure. But anyway, yep, fat from the get-go, nothing I could do. Growing up was tough for me. I was raised in a 2 parent household (still married actually) and I have a brother who is 4 years older than I. Mom and dad both worked hard, mom from home, dad was away a lot, but that was kind of okay with me. Interacting with dad was rough, still is really. I’ll spare you the details, but suffice it to say, my weight was always a topic of… “conversation” we’ll call it. Not the best motivator for a kid, as you can imagine, but I don’t blame him. His dad was an ass to him, so I guess shit rolls downhill as they say and frankly, I was an easy target for disappointment. Anyway, my mom tried everything to help me lose weight. I remember joining a gym and having a personal trainer in elementary school. I also remember attending weight watchers meetings as a kid with my mom, but I was the member. We had to get special permission for me to attend. Talk about embarrassing, but bless her heart, she tried. However, nothing worked. It sucked, as you all know I’m sure. Elementary school was hell, riding the bus was terrifying, not sure what was going to get thrown at me each day, just because I was different. Kids are assholes. I got called every name in the book and eventually just stopped listening. Yeah, I’m fat, great, how original.      .sigh.

All that is rough on a kid and I’m sure I still have some residual bullshit rolling around in my head from it, but it made me the strong woman I am today, so I guess it wasn’t all for naught.

Anyway, moving on to junior high, still fat (shocking, I know) but ended up making some awesome lifetime friends and caring if I was heavy became less of a concern. I lost weight in high school for some reason, more active? Puberty? Who knows, but one crappy break up the summer between junior and senior year and I ballooned up to almost 300lbs my senior year. And so, my life as a morbidly obese woman began.

From 2000-2009, I bounced around from about 210 to 300+, depending on my depression level at the time (Side note- I’ve been on Prozac on and off since ‘99). Funny part is, looking back the most fun I ever had and some of the most fond memories I have are from 2005, the fattest I have ever been, no doubt over 300lbs, but I was happy and I didn’t care. In hindsight though, I wasn’t happy. I was having fun, yeah, but always in the back of my mind, I envied my thin friends who got all the attention and hated being the ‘fat friend’ and being virtually invisible. Sometimes when you’re fat though, you come to be thankful for being invisible, since attention usually ends up being a negative event. But dammit, I want positive attention, I mean, who doesn’t?

Anyway, fast forward again to summer of 2009. I was 282lbs, depressed and basically just ‘over’ being fat. So I started a low calorie, low fat diet and stuck to it to a T. In one month, I lost 2lbs. I was miserable, hungry and not seeing the results I wanted. My brother had recently lost about 80lbs following Protein Power, so I turned to him for help. I was ready to try anything, unconventional? Maybe. But I knew it worked, so I was game. He gave me the book, told me to read it and let him know if I had any questions, and boy did I. He’s a patient man, because I must have been annoying as hell the first couple months! I cut down to 30g of carbs a day and in less than 3 months, lost 30lbs and felt awesome. Then enter the holiday season and long story short; between then and Sept 2010, I gained it all back. I had tried restarting it again a few times, but always ended up stuffing my face with carbs and got right back up to 280. After moving to Florida in February 2010 at 260, then finding 280 again in the fall, I finally said enough is enough.

The first day of my new life as a former carb addicted fat-ass was Septemer 13th, 2010 at 280lbs. Today I weighed in at 203.  I’ve been struggling for a while to get under 200, a few more cheats than I should have, but life happens. 77lbs is a lot. I’m damn proud of myself. I feel better, I look better and I can do things without second-guessing if I’m too fat to do them. Of course I still second guess, but I’m hoping it’s a bad habit I will lose over time.

As far as what made me get my shit together, I have no idea. I’ve had numerous ‘wake up calls’ or ‘light bulb moments’ over the years, not fitting on roller coasters, breaking chairs, etc, but I guess I was just never ready. I guess something finally clicked, like ‘hey, you know how to do this, you know it works, now get off your ass and do it already!’

So I did.

Pardon the goofy face in the ‘during’, I was being silly. I will post more progress photos as I get into this, but this will do for now, you see what I’m working with here.

I’ve got a long way to go to get to a “healthy weight” of 145 (according to BMI charts and such), but for once, I can see it happening. My goal is to be there by the time I turn 30 in November, but even if that is a bit of a steep goal, I’ll still be closer to ‘normal’ than I ever have been, and that is what matters.

I’ve lost the weight thus far with little to no exercise, as I’m just a lazy creature. But I do wish I had paid more attention to doing that on the way down. When you don’t incorporate exercise, sure, you lose fat, but you don’t gain muscle and things get a bit…. Loose. Blech.

So as of the new year, I’ve started walking a few miles almost every day. I’m hoping exercising is like drinking water, the more you do it, the more you want to do it? But we shall see, at least I am doing something.

So, you may be asking yourself what my purpose in blogging is, my story isn’t all that different than anyone else’s really, I’m not a snowflake and I’m certainly not much if a writer, but I think it’s good for me to have a place to vent my daily struggles on this way of life, cathartic hopefully. But what I really hope is that people who read this, one person even, can become inspired to take control, lose weight and live a happier, more fulfilling life because of it. I’m thankful every day to my brother who gave me this knowledge and changed my life, quite possibly saved it as well.

I’ll be posting my triumphs, defeats, thoughts, struggles, recipes, meals, advice, encouragement, whatever. I want to see what this can grow into. I’m not an expert nor am I a health/exercise nut, I’m just a regular chick, making my way and trying to get healthy and look good. Yes, vanity is important!!

Some follow and some lead…. I think I’ve earned my stripes as a follower, I’m thinking I’ll try my hand at leading.

Coming along??

20 thoughts on “To blog or not to blog, that is the question.

  1. Your story may or may not be “all that different,” but it definitely *is* a compelling one. I hope you’ll find the time to keep writing. (And I *love* the blog title; it’s excellent!)

    Re: exercise: I suspect that some people find it self-perpetuating, and some don’t. Sometimes I don’t realize how much I needed it until I make myself do it–then I wonder why I waited so long!

    • Thanks!! :) I actually dragged myself to the gym yesterday for the first time in a while, didn’t stay long, but I did get that ‘what was I waiting for?’ feeling!!!

      • You don’t need to lose weight, but raethr you should try to gain muscle in effect, gain weight (ignore your scale). The “skinny fat people” that you are talking about have a low percentage of lean mass and a high percentage of fat for their weight. The only way to correct this is by building muscle. You can’t build muscle if you are worried about your weight.And, no matter what you do, you may always have a “tummy”. It’s best not to try to target weight loss especially if you are already thing you may never be satisfied. The people who have rock solid abs are either 1) airbrushed or 2) have put their bodies into extremely low fat percentages (less than 12% body fat for women) for competitions they also lose their breasts when they do this, but it’s usually only temporary as they gain the fat back after their competition or photoshoot or whatever.Adding some muscle will definitely help make your appearance firmer, and the best part is that you don’t have to cut calories you just eat clean.

      • If I’m working out hard and heavy and lose a few pdnous that week, I always attribute at least 50% of that weight loss to water loss, because it can be difficult to replace lost fluids at times. Also, if those fluids are not replaced appropriately, the on my off days, I can very easily gain several pdnous of water retention.If my work outs have been normal and lost a couple of pdnous and have been well hydrated, then I consider that real loss.

    • 1. Aim to consume four to six small meals and sacnks everyday.Keep the diet simple when you start,it will be easier to increase your standards if you have the aim to lose weight in a month.Start by simply just counting calories and avoiding saturated fats.2. Eat your foods slower.This will help your body to take a higher percent of nutrients,vitamins and minerals from the same food.This helpsyou if you want to lose weight in a month and also remain healthy.3. Make healthier food selections like fruits, vegetables, whole grain cereals,beans,low fat or nonfat dairy products, low fat meats, fish and skinless poultry.4. Avoid foods that are high in fat and calories.5. Avoid foods that are high in sugars such as pastries, candy bars, pies and candy.6. Use a variety of fruits and vegetables in your nutrition plan.Try to eat five total vegetable and fruit servings every day.

      • I was on my own variation of the Atkins diet years ago. During the first two weeks, I lost about ten poudns then I lost about 3 poudns a week, for a total loss of 35 poudns. My variation stuck with the atkins diet except for one change. After the initial two weeks, I allowed myself one splurge day each week. I could eat whatever I wanted on that day. It worked because I wastn’t tempted to cheat throughout the week. I saved my cravings for my splurge day.

      • a really good way to lose wehgit without a diet is to drink 4 cups of water before every meal. this will fill you up, and youlle eat less, plus water is really good for you.couple this with the wehgits at home, and youlle be fine.oh, and by the way, google power of ten adam zickerman and get the bookits a workout that you do twice a week for 20 minutes, and its better than the 5 day a week, hour each day routinemy dad and i have both been doing this for 2 years, and it works really really well.so yeah, drink water before you eat to lose the extra fat, and use your wehgits for power of 10 to get musclegood luck!!!!!hope this helps!!!!!

    • I tried the low carb diet a few years back. I lost a few pounds but i gienad it back very quickly. The low carb diet is not a good diet to go on. Trust me. I have tried every diet out there and none work. If you want to lose a few pounds, limit your calorie intake and exercise a little. The low carb diet was gross to me. All there is to eat is meat. Fatty meat, such as bacon, sausage etc. After i lost the weight, i gienad it right back. Its the hardest diet in the world to maintain. Its also the most unhealthiest diet. I just don’t want you to make the mistake i did and waste your time with this diet. lol. Good luck tho if you are wanting to lose a few pounds:)

    • Well, so far I think I am doing goodbut also have not lost a siicnfgiant amount of pounds, however, I continue avoiding sugars and refined carbs as much as possible. One thing I have not been able to quit is rice. I try to have brown but if it not available at restaurant, I just have my regular white rice. I know I may delay the loosing weight.

  2. Thank you for writing, I read about your blog on LLLowcarb on Jimmy Moore’s site. I am glad you did. Although I am about 45 years older than you and know you can loose weight faster than me, I too want to stick to low carb, but have tried and tried many times. I like it better than low fat, but am very lazy especailly about breakfast and start off wrong, as today then just blow it the rest of the day. Any easy answers for breakfast, like soooooooooooo easy, as I have a very hard time walking around in the morning with two bad knees and down’t feel llike making eggs and bacon or spam or sausage and less just doesn’t seem to fill me up. Can you help. Will read more oh….I don’t like a shake in the morning, hate to have to wash out the blender and right now in these apts. have to boil the water before we can drink it for another couple days or weeks….julie

    • Hey Julie! Thanks for stopping by! I personally am not a breakfast person in the morning, but sometimes I wake up hungry for whatever reason and I’ll grab an Atkins RTD (ready to drink) shake to tide me over, they’re easy, tasty and simple! A little on the pricey side, but if you’re crafty (like I try to be!) you can usually find a sale and a coupon and make out like a bandit. Especially this time of year when dieting is in full swing! I’m going to try to incorporate low carb product sales and such into my blog going forward, so keep an eye out!

      Or there is always the option of cooking ahead, hard boiled eggs and bacon both taste great pre-cooked out of the fridge!

    • oh sorry to hear about your igfner but I’m glad you didn’t slice your igfner off. that is awesome news about Biggest Loser. best of luck. you looked really cute on your interview day. oh my you got it!!! awesome. Congrats on your weight loss

    • I hear you. I’ve lost only two pounds in 3 weeks floolwing Jorge’s sugar/carb guidelines. However, I can see a slight decrease of fat around my belly. I’m going to stick with this diet for a few more weeks and see what happens.I want to offer one suggestion to you start eating low-sugar fruits, such as apples, berries and grapefruit. Fruit is loaded with nutrients and also has fiber, which is important in any weight loss program. Good luck and hang in there!

  3. Sara, you look amazing! No matter what you look on the exterior you have an amazing inside. I finally woke up, 32 yrs old and it’s time for a change. I like you have turned to a low carb lifestyle and I would never change it for the world! You are a true inspiration. <3

  4. Hi Jay, I am sorry that your hurt your finger. Congratulations on eiarnng a position on the The Biggest Loser!! I am sure you are going to do well. This is only the beginning!! Peace and blessings. Take care. 

  5. Only in recent times have ppoele been eating fruit that is not grown in the area/season where they live. Eat MOSTLY organic local produce in season, it has everything we need to stay well. Freeze, ferment, dehydrate, or can it . But do get your nutrients mostly from vegetables, seeds, nuts, raw whole sprouted grains (all winter!) and a bit of animal life. Don’t think that we are lucky to have a lot of tropical fruits shipped to us all year in the north; it’s pushing the envelope.

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